Wednesday, 9 September 2009

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions...

I have been making some decisions today, some small, some big.

The big one, we are not having the gorgeous little kitten.  After talking it over with family and friends we decided it would not be fair on either the kitten or Titch. Titch is a little sweetheart and I do trust her, but animal instincts take over as it did when she caught a rabbit in the forest at Tennismuir. 

After seeing the kittens on Monday evening, I really fell in love with them all.  So their lovely mum Elise, after being told of my decision has decided she is keeping all three kittens.  She said  I can be "Auntie" to all three and vistit them often. So that was one decision that was sad and I shed a tear or two, but it's the right one.

The other decision I made today, is to take life as it comes.  I am not going to fret about things I have no control over.  This might sound quite simple, but it is pretty huge for me.  I have always worried about what other people have thought of me over the years. I have always been a people pleaser, always been what other people wanted me to be, wether it be my mother, my siblings, my husband's, my children, my friends,
 my workmates or employers.

It has only dawned on me recently I only have to please me, if I do that, those who love me will be happy with who I am, if they don't they don't matter.  Sounds harsh I know, but believe me I have had harsh treatment from those who supposedly loved me.

I am not writing this in bitterness, in fact just the opposite.  I am writing in joyous recognition of my self worth.
 I have finally realised at the age of 59 that I am worth looking after.
 That is what I am starting to do today, in all area's.

What This Space.

4 comments:

Tina xx said...

OMG Sheilagh I could have written that myself. Well done you in realizing that you are just as important as everybody else. It takes a lot to do that, especially if like you say you have always been a people pleaser. I know because that is exactly what I am. Im really pleased you have made this decision. Put yourself first for a change and stop fretting. Im 40 , and if you do it, so will I !!!x

Fat[free]Me said...

Yeah, we will love you for you - no need to turn yourself inside out trying to please everybody - you are fabulous just being you anyway.

Now, if only I could quit the people-pleasing bug too!

Yeah, I think it will be less stressful, though a terrible shame not to have the kitten. Oh, and being able to visit them and get a kitten fix, sounds like the best of both worlds!

I must say, reading your thoughts as you approach 60, make me look forward to that milestone now, because if I get half as wonderful as you, I will be extremely happy indeed.

Tammy said...

Thank goodness I'm not the only people pleaser who has suffered....I tried standing up to my sister yesterday, making my time more important than adhering to her schedule and when she needs me to babysit...and she gave me some very unkind words. I hope things work out much, much better for you...I really do. Fighting within the family is hard to bear. :(

Accidental carer said...

YOU ARE PERFECT AND YES I AM SHOUTING!!
LOVE YOU LOADS AND SO DO HUNDREDS OF OTHER PEOPLE EVEN THE ONES WHO DON'T SHOW IT. Whats not to love????? xxxxxxx