Weigh-In-Wednesday Day 16/90

Well after giving myself a good talking to yesterday
I have had a much better day today.
I am still not sleeping but looking at changing some habits to see i
f I can improve matters. I have had lots of advice to try to enhance
my sleeping pattern. I am going to start trying
a different bedtime routine tonight.
Unfortunately I cannot have the relaxing warm bath
recommended by a couple of friends in work. We don't have a bath.
I will try a warm shower instead, I usually have a hot shower
of a morning so a warm one is going to be different.
I have also bought some lavender and camomile oils as recommended
by BearFriend from http://friendofthebear.blogspot.com/ 
I will be using them tonight also. I so need them to work....

I had a good day in work, we were very busy
but folk had happier heads on today.
I had a lot of happy banter with patients both
face to face and on the telephone.
Even the doctors were a a little more relaxed a
fter the review meeting with the local PCT went well.

I can't let today go without mentioning my Fabulous Friend Kari f
rom http://fat-free-me.blogspot.com/  At todays weigh in she reached her goal weight
and has lost a fantastic 87.5pounds. This woman has been so committed to this weight loss
she has been AWESOME. I have never seen such dedicationstength and guts.
 I am so proud of her and delighted to claim her as a very dear friend.

My weigh in this morning brought me a two pound loss,
I am so delighted with this after the yucky week I have had.
My mood as been up and down but my food has been FAB.

So I am half way to my 60 x 60. I could say the pressure is on but I am not I am not letting it get to me.  I have just over three months to go, if I lose the next 30 as slowly as the first 30 I will not get there. I am looking at what changes I can make food wise. Any tips or advice most welcome. I know I must step up the exercise good style and I am in talks with my beloved on this subject.

Todays Ninety Minutes

A warm shower, body lotion, mug of hot chocolate (Light) a dab or two of Lavender and the same of Camomile, Meave Binchy and my bed....Ninty minutes to slumber........zzzzzzzz.....zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Mood = Hopeful
Food = Wholesome

Oh Do You Make Me Feel Good!!! But I am so Bad Day 15/90

Thank you so much for the lovely comments left on my last post, it really gave me a lift when I came on line tonight. It really is a joy to have such friends out there, THANK YOU. I glean such inspiration from reading  blogs and tonight I have been humbled reading one blog in particular:
http://zaaisshrinking.blogspot.com/  This fabulous woman is having a rotten time at the moment, no money, family illness, cat been ill, dog and cat got fleas, to name but a few of her problems. But she never moans, never gives in, she is awesome.  She makes me feel ashamed.  I wrote this second paragraph before reading her post. I am Utterly Ashamed of Myself...

It's been a rough day all round. This not sleeping is doing my head in.  Work has been manic, the pre-Christmas panic has set in.  It happens every year, patients suddenly realise we are closed for the holiday and get crazy about repeat prescriptions and needing to see the doctor before the holiday.  On top of that we are short staffed, but still the new scanning training goes on.  Leaving just two of us to deal with eight phone lines, greeting patients at the desk, generating repeat prescriptions, as well as doing regular admin chores.

At least I have got a job.
My husband has got a job.
We have a comfortable home.
We have no money worries.
Our families are all well and secure.
Our dog is well and doesn't have fleas.

I need to start counting my Blessings and start helping those less fortunate.
Thank you Zaa for a very valuable lesson especially at this time of the year.
I hope your situation improves very soon, you really are a STAR.

Christmas Do Day 14/90

Christmas Do

This is me ready for the party, I don't look as slim as I feel which is a disappointment.

I got loads of compliments on the night and today about how I looked on the night.

The food was delicious and the company great. 

I have been having trouble sleeping again and was out of sorts yesterday after being awake all night Saturday/Sunday.  I had a nap yesterday afternoon but my energy levels were virtually nil. I started taking St Johns Wort again today to see if it will help.

Feeling very tired tonight.

Mood = Weary

Food = Good

My Ninety Minutes

Every one of them resting.

Lovely Day with my Guy Day 12/90

I have had a lovely day today, went shopping for a new Christmas tree, had a meander around the shops. Bought yet another handbag (I have quite a few) but this was at the instigation of my husband so I wasn't arguing:o)

We have had a lovely relaxing afternoon, had a light lunch of bagel, Extra Light Philly and smoked salmon. Was delicious. Tried to eat light today as tonights Cristmas "Do" is a Christmas Carvery so saving myself for that.

Just about to start the transformation from mere mortal to heavenly body, trouble is I have seached high and low for that magic wand and it has disappeared..Ok Who pinched it?  Come on, confess now and I will let you off..

Todays Ninety Minutes

Music = Josh Groban again, he moves me, his song "When You Say You Love Me" is my song to my guy.
Reading = Blogs
Pampering = Just about to start, should take about an hour...

Mood = Fab
Food  = Fab

Finn Day 11/90

 

Here is the Beautiful Boy,
Finlay Andrew McKenzie Dawson.
He is three months old now and a such a joy.
Growing so fast, too fast....








Today's Ninety Minutes

38 on Wii Fit Plus
30 walking
30 Reading

Food Fab
Mood Great

It is our Christmas  "Do" tomorrow night and I am deterermined to enjoy but not over indulge.

Alison Moyet

I read this article today:
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1234452/Alison-Moyet-half-woman-returns-stage-The-Royal-Festival-Hall.html


 Alison Moyet is one of my very favourite singers and always felt a connection to her weight wise. Reading this article reinforced that connection.

She speaks of not wanting to be an obese old lady, that was what sparked off my present and final journey to a good healthy weight.  In my job as a Doctor's Receptionist, I see too many women of a certain age who  have trouble walking and talking, due to weight. I have become acutely aware of the health problems that are compounded by Obesity.  Heart Disease, Diabetes, Hypertension, Arthritis, CKD to name but a few. I have Diabetes but I am delighted to say it is so under control I don't feel like a Diabetic.

I don't want to be dependent on others for my care as I grow older. I want to live a long, healthy and active life. I don't want to be on so much medication that it has to be blister-packed so I don't get mixed up. I don't want to be so inactive that I need help to get out of a chair or my bed.

I want to be active both in body and mind.
I want to be happy and healthy.
I want to be interested in the world.
I want to take part in life not be a spectator.

So I must keep on with this journey, making it different and exciting when I float off into the doldrums.
I have read several blogs today with a tone of loneliness, defeat and boredom. I know it is difficult this time of the year to keep focussed on our health and wellbeing.  There is so much going on, with the build up to Christmas, shopping, parties, preparations. But we shouldn't forget to look after ourselves.  It would be so easy to let all the hard work go and say, I will start again in the New Year. But I for one am not going down that road. I have had a tough time getting to where I am now with this weight loss battle, I am not going to fall behind for the sake of a few days.

I plan to enjoy my food in the run up to Christmas and over the holiday, but it will all be in moderation and it will be calorie counted. I don't have a problem with calories, for me they are a great guide and help me to make good choices. They don't rule me, I rule them.

Alison Moyet is looking pretty darn good at the moment and I hope she can keep it up, she is a new inspiration for me. We have both been big, now she is slim and I am heading there.

Size Eighteen Day 10/90

Remember I posted about my Size 18's fitting but a little to tight  to wear them?

Well I wore them at the weekend to go to Scotland and here is the photo to prove it :o)

They seem a bit big on the legs already..

Working on Size 16 now.

Ninety Minutes

Music = Josh Groban

Reading = Magazines

Pampering = Moisturing legs.

Mood = Fair

Food = Fair

Weigh In Wednesday Day 9/90

I feel I have been AWOL for ages, I didn't get the chance to post on Friday before we went to Scotland for the weekend. It was a very wet, soggy weekend.  I have never known such rain. The rain didn't stop us having a good time, it was a good family weekend. 

Finn is growing so quickly, he is a beautiful boy. We spent a lovely afternoon with him and his mummy and daddy on Saturday. Sunday was spent with Ralph's mum and sister and it was wonderful.  His mum loves having both of her children together having a good "Blether" as she says. It never happened during his first marriage..

Sunday evening we were with Uncle Bobby and Auntie Isobel, I adore these two lovely people. Isobel was my little Guardian Angel when Ralph and I got together. She seemed to understand the difficult dynamics of the family after divorce and the aftermath. But that is a post for another time maybe.

Monday morning we whizzed round seeing other aunties uncles and cousins before making our way back home.  I am so humbled by the love and concern this family have for each other, I miss my mum's family for this, I only have one auntie living now. My mum was one of nine children and my dad was one of eleven.  So my childhood and teenage years were full of family get togethers and celebrations. Going to Scotland brings those memories flooding back and I love it.

We got back home on Monday late afternoon, travelling back in horrendous rain, a scarey ride.  We were both physically and mentally wrecked. A very early night was needed...

Yesterday was my darlings birthday and we spent the day together in Liverpool.  It didn't work out as planned.  The weather again being the culprit, rain rain rain rain..... We had a lovely time together despite the weather. On the way home we stopped off at my favourite book store only to be shocked and upset.  BORDERS has gone into administration, the stores are closing and 1400 jobs are being lost across Britain. This time last year it was Woolworths!! 

My Ninety Day Plan ins back on track, I have been reading, listening to music,
Ralph bought me Susan Boyle's CD on Monday, that woman has the voice of an angel.
We did a little walking but not as much as we usually do, again due to the weather.
So reading is on track...
Music is on track...
Relaxing is on track...
Food is Great.
Mood is Fair.

Weight loss today .6lb. Slightly disappointing  but it is still a loss. Still hoping for Onderland for Christmas.