Wednesday, 28 July 2010

Monday Morning

Not back at work....

At my consultation with my doctor, it became apparent I am not ready to return to work.I want to return but I am scared of returning. We discussed my fear, my thinking, my emotions. He concluded I am not ready and gave me a note for two weeks. He wants to see me again on Friday to discuss an altered duties return to work. He has advised I have some playtime this week. So I am hoping to do some scrapping or card making or even some altered art. I say hoping, because I have for a long time had an emotional block on doing anything creative. I do scrap with my granddaughter's, a bake with my grandchildren. But doing anything creative that comes from inside of me, doesn't happen. Even at the retreat, the scrapping I did was very basic, I was just going through the motions. I enjoyed being there, but felt quite useless, especially after seeing some of the work that was going on around me. So I am away to find my MoJo, it must be here somewhere...

11 comments:

Rettakat said...

I hope you have a very nice "playtime"... and do something that makes you smile, something that is quiet and gentle and feels good and is just fun.

I've read that lots of people enjoy making art in secret journals, just for themselves. They might add words to the page, or not. Don't know if that interests you...

But whatever you do, I hope you find it thoroughly restful and peaceful. :-)

Loretta
=^..^=

anne h said...

♡❀♡❀
Here's some hearts and flowers for you!
From way across the Bid Pond!

anne h said...

Make that the "Big" Pond, eh?
:D

F. McButter Pants said...

I can relate about not feeling the mojo. Maybe playtime doesn't have to be creative. Maybe just thinking that is blocking your creative juices. Maybe you are "pressuring" yourself to be creative. Be kind to yourself. I am glad that we are both seeing someone to help us.

big hug....i wish i lived in New England!

Liverpool Lou (Anne) said...

Oh yes what Rettakat says may be good. One way of doing it is to write thoughts and feelings down then paint over them and carry on with the page from there, that way it's out but no-one else gets to see it.
Anne xx

Rettakat said...

Hi again, Sheilagh!

I just visited a site I enjoy a lot, and thought of you! This last week or so she has a lot of posts on altered books and art journals... I thought you might enjoy it too:
http://daisyyellow.squarespace.com/

Loretta
=^..^=

Erin @ I Heart New England said...

Enjoy the time to yourself... hope your creative juices begin to flow ♥

M Pax said...

My passions seemed to change. Odd, huh? Wishing for the finding of your mojo soon.

spunkysuzi said...

Maybe playtime means letting yourself be silly/have fun/play like you would when you were small :) I know i sometimes dance around the house like a fool and when i'm on my walks if a great song comes on i skip, punch at an invisible punching bag and smile like a fool! Let yourself go and enjoy it.

dawne said...

I'm glad to hear this. It seemed very soon to go back to work after such a difficult time. Keep playing with that paper...it's so therapeutic, isn't it?

cmoursler said...

At my lowest I didn't even doodle. It's a dryness of spirit she. Get quiet with God. He will fill you up.
Big ole hugs and best wishes and prayers for you.
Hugs, Chris