My Very Favourit Flower in All the World
Just been dipping in and out, usually when my man is having a swim. I am having a wonderful time. This has been a totally relaxed holiday, one we both needed. We have met some really lovely people, the Turkish are so genuinely friendly.
I have enjoyed some delicous meals, delightful pastries and to die for salads. I have put weight on, I can see it and feel it around my middle. Do you know something, I don't care right now. I have a plan for when we get back, so right now I am enjoying every moment, every morsel.
Although,I do have a body image problem that won't let me wear a swimsuit in public, we went to the beach and I sat fully clothed on a sunbed under a canopy. As I looked around I questioned why I am like this, as there are many women much larger than me, stripping off and wearing bikini's, appearing not to give a toss. Why can't I be like that. It is not something that upset's me as it has always been part and parcel of who I am since childhood. So it is nothing new and it is not raw, if you know what I mean. It does bother Ralph though, he is proud of me and wishes I would wear a swimsuit to the beach. I have no body image problem as far as he is concerned, I am so confident of his love and commitment to me, I don't hide from him. In fact we have had a lot of fun:o)