The wedding was beautiful, the bride and groom were gorgeous, the venue was delightful. The food both, the wedding breakfast and the evening buffet was delicious. It was a perfect day, almost...
For me two things spoilt it for me.
Number one was me, big, fat, yucky me, when I saw the photo's my husband took I was devastated. I looked fat, frumpy and old!! I knew the weight I have lost had started creeping back, but it must have stampeded this past week!!
Number two was Phil getting drunk after promising Trish he would not, therefore breaking her heart yet again. Why people who profess to being friends of both of them, who know the problems Phil has with alcohol. Insist on buying him pint after pint, I am dumbfounded at this behaviour and don't know who was to blame, the people who plied him with drink or Phil for drinking himself into oblivion.
My heart is heavy for Trish and for me, Trish has no control over Phil, but I should have control over me, my weight and what I put in my body. So what have I done today? I have stuffed my face until I feel sick, I am disgusted with me, disgusted with Phil. What am I to do? I am seriously thinking of leaving Blogland. I am sick of writing about being a failure, you must be sick of reading my crap.